This week my ‘get service’ light went on in my car, my daughter needed $700 for a summer camp (my half. My ex paid the other half) and I was feeling compelled to contribute to my women’s group. On top of that taxes have to get done and the second payment on my property taxes paid. That’s a lot and it’s weighing on me. It cost me sleep last night.
I started to say; Oh, be grateful, you have a daughter healthy enough to go to camp, a home, a car and friends who support you. That’s all true and I am grateful… and that does help… but I am worried. I went over my finances last night and there wasn’t enough money. Note to self: do not do finances before going to bed.
I talked to my best friend this morning about it and she said, At least you’ll find out that people really do care about you. Just miss a payment.
When I was married and spent a lot, I was referred to as eccentric. Now that is called nuts. My reputation was on the line. I couldn’t ask my ex, although he would come through. I had set myself up as responsible and having my act together. I went to Macy’s this afternoon and left without buying anything. I left thinking, “act natural, you’re innocent.”
I had enough for the car and the summer camp. I would pay the penalty on the property taxes and pay them in 2 months. There was light at the end of the tunnel. Now to hope it wasn’t turned off by the electric company.
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