I used to go to all the Abraham-Hicks meetings. I believed in the Law of Attraction. I am certain I attracted a gay husband because I was really wanting a great interior decorator.
So I have this great life now. I have a job, I am healthy, I am off drugs and alcohol, I am happily single and I am writing, which I love. I must have attracted all of that. Well, I’m not exactly sure. My sobriety was the result of an intervention so I didn’t really chose it or want it at the time. My children were both ‘mistakes’ and ‘unplanned’ events that caused me great stress at the time. I never wanted to be single and am certain my path to self-worth was to be married and have someone else love me. And my job is a requirement that I would put in second place after my first place choice: retirement.
And I don’t really own that I created the healthy description. When I got divorced 11 years ago I was 20 pounds overweight. I lost 30 pounds that year and discovered what the words stress, implode and downward spiral really meant. Weight-watchers had nothing to do with my beautifully slender figure.
But look how it turned out. I now live consciously, love my children more than they can ever know, am financially stable, look great, feel happy and independent and most of all I love myself. That’s it. The one thing I always wanted to attract wasn’t outside myself. It was that I wanted to love, appreciate and value myself. That’s an energy, a realization of what really is. It isn’t something that has to be created or attracted. It’s realization. When I changed that energy, my life transformed.
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